My apologies for the blogging hiatus. There's this thing called depression that occasionally comes along and eats my brain cells, and then I have to wait for my head to get back to normal. It's been better lately, but I think somehow counseling triggered another rough patch. Seriously, I must have memory issues because I had honestly forgotten what it was like to be this tired all. the. time. It's like I'm trying to think and move through a huge bowl of jello. You can see roughly where you need to go and what you need to do, but suddenly everything just feels like a huge slog. I've got counseling and a chat with the pastor coming up soon though, so I'm hoping to get through this current patch soon.
Thanks for bearing with me.
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Showing posts with label getting things done. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
All wore out
Here's something most exercise enthusiasts don't point out - any days that you can spend gardening/painting/pulling up carpet/etc are days where sore muscles actually result in getting things accomplished. What I am doing still awake I am not sure. And tomorrow I get to do it some more =)
But before I toddle off to brush my teeth a few observations on body image. When I was a good 30-40lbs lighter I used to think (not unsurprisingly) that I was rather overweight. My mom had (has?) something of a phobia of overweight people - somewhat understandably so, but you see where I'm going with this. When I was a teenager/college student I tended to have a yo-yo-ing body image. On one hand my mom was making jokes about me at the pool, but on the other hand I could see that I was reasonably fit and attractive. Enter another 40lbs, and I still have the exact same problem. You might say that I look exactly how I thought I looked when I wasn't overweight. On one hand I do often feel overweight (which is the truth), but then again there are times when I feel much as I did when I younger (to the tune of "Eh, it's not that bad). While I do want to feel good about the way I look there I times when I just wish for accuracy. That way maybe I'd be actually motivated to lose the weight and then, Lord willing, when I lost I'd actually be able to see that I had.
Anyone else have similar problems?
But before I toddle off to brush my teeth a few observations on body image. When I was a good 30-40lbs lighter I used to think (not unsurprisingly) that I was rather overweight. My mom had (has?) something of a phobia of overweight people - somewhat understandably so, but you see where I'm going with this. When I was a teenager/college student I tended to have a yo-yo-ing body image. On one hand my mom was making jokes about me at the pool, but on the other hand I could see that I was reasonably fit and attractive. Enter another 40lbs, and I still have the exact same problem. You might say that I look exactly how I thought I looked when I wasn't overweight. On one hand I do often feel overweight (which is the truth), but then again there are times when I feel much as I did when I younger (to the tune of "Eh, it's not that bad). While I do want to feel good about the way I look there I times when I just wish for accuracy. That way maybe I'd be actually motivated to lose the weight and then, Lord willing, when I lost I'd actually be able to see that I had.
Anyone else have similar problems?
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